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Is just so unfair. I dont think I deserve this. It’s like trying so hard not to eat candies since you were little. Then you’d still,somehow get a tooth decay when you grow up. How Ironic life can be. hate!

I was browsing my old “thought-bin” ( my blogs =] ) and i paused to read one blog entry. Well, I was just amused because what i was reading is the same thing of what i was feeling at that moment.. Ain’t it surprising? I posted that blog like a year ago and it feels like those thoughts visits me once in a while and seems to repeat itself over and over.. Im a bit of worried and a little frustrated cuz i may have been doing the same mistakes in life and seems like i didnt learn anything from it. Ugggh..a stubborn-hard headed-careless-dumb ass-bitch inside me.

anyway,heres that piece of trash from a year ago blog-bin..

It’s so sad to realize that not all the special things in your life will stay just right there beside you. It hurts alot when you never wanted to just let it end that way. But life is unpredictable. in any minute things will fall way far beyond your expectations. Sometimes it does good to us no matter how things turned out to be, but its alot difficult coz you’ll never know, one day will come as you woke up, Things were’nt there where you expected them to be there. I reckon that we just need to admit to ourselves that nothing lasts forever. Not in a way that you’ll just let them slip away from your hands, but try to live with the fact that those things might happen..just one day..one day in your life, can be the biggest change in your life..and that one day will change the whole directions of your life.

I was kind of thinking what would i be like 10 yrs from now, then bunch of them popped up from the inside, like as if i know its going to happen. Well first and for most, Im in a 50-50 chance of deciding each ways, like everything for now is too cloudy, like i should wait when dates get closer and see if its gonna clear up. which i hope they will. Especially when the unexpected just came up and made it more harder to decide. I have a target plan, Which is not a hundred percent sure wether if im going to stick with it or not. It’s really hard you know, Its too complicated either way, so i thought il wait til things get well. seriously,right now, I keep battling with where and when, and how long and how much, how near and how far. I know you dont get it but its just that I cant tell nobody right now,with all this crazy ideas, and decision makings, before it gets jinxed and mess up everything. But as soon as I get the mess all straightened up, I’ll let you know. LOL so my Status: VERY CONFUSED!!

mmmm..! feels so good to be home.. lying in my bed feelin the cold season,tucked in my warm comforter trying to fall asleep. I have been thinking about many things that happened to me this past weeks. Good and Bad, Happy and Sad, Gloomy and Bright..everything! I’ve been trying hard to let it come out to my mind and write it down here, but i know that i will never really get to put the right words into sentences to describe how its been lingering all to myself. so thats it. Thanks for reading! LOL

I dont know if im goin to write it in here or just forget bout it

alas! Even I cant believe myself!.. I made a right decision today..well, its weekend..Saturday night,and guess where I am?.. At Home,chillaxin..! Usually I would go out and enjoy my weekend,but now,Id prefer to stay home and hook up with my laptop.

It’s been a whole month since i started partying even how exhausted I have been. never had a sleep more than two to three hours. Then back to work, after worrk hours, happy hour..I never had a decent sleep. So awhile ago while friends called left and right, I stopped to think if imna go out or just stay home and be nice to my body for once..And so, I overlook at my schedule, tomorrow i wil be working..again until sunday. From eight in the morning until dawn..And so I realized that I should give my body some rest. And so I did.

I am happy cuz I didnt regret what I did. I’ve been terribly bad to myself. Over-working, Sleep depriving, eating unhealthy diet..and Im just so glad for what I’ve done tonight.

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I made a very wrong move though,like two days ago. And it just dont wanna leave my conscience..HA HA! I regret it though, But somehow I learned from  it. Well, Im really glad for having it done and learning lessons over it. However, It doesnt made me feel good in some part of it. Well..sigh

I haven’t been able to blog this past few weeks..busy busy working! I tried to limit parties and kicks. But the more i run away from them the more they keep on chasin after me!.. waaah! so id decided to party only durin the weekends. Last week, one casual friend had his burthday celebrated at a hotel..t’was kinda dead the moment we got there, and later that night it turns out to be a bust! LOL so everybody left and ran to Cerritos, Musikahan..! HA HA! poor guy..sorry for that..

Seems like Musikahan is now the new kickback place. I noticed every weekends, we never fail to crash there. Gay Guys on the stage and singing on Karaoke..Beers commonly found in the Phil. were there, feels like you’re just in the Phils. cuz too many Juan Dela Cruz around! and what more could you ask for? LOL just dont Drink And Drive unless u wanna get DUI.. now this weekend, another friend of mine is celebrating his burthday and hope its not gonna be a bust!

Two weeks sleep deprived, but still have all the energy to come and whack!

Well, I was hopin, that one day.. I’ll just wake up and realize that I’m way to much off partying. LOL wishhh..

Hey everyone! Notice I haven’t been uploading several photos of
myself? It’s because my camera broke and I was struggling to grab pics
from other friends cameras. Just whenever i could sneak and steal my
pictures! Hopefully I can get a new one this month. not when bills are
in traffic, lining in front of me!

I was so excited putting up a picture of myself in my permanent
curls, but i haven’t got my pictures yet! ugh! And so until I decided
to put my straight hair back!.. Haven’t I told you that I easily get
tired of things..like this!

By the way, I wanted to share this cute photo which I hope you guys
can squeeze a little out of your time to see this one, not  much though,
two little bunnies in-love!

So I was browsing the net and I randomly click this site, and saw a very cute picture. I think its Luffy and Nami from One Piece (anime) though they arent lookin up at us, I can see from the figure and sketch. So i saved it and thought its nice if I would put this up in here for you guys to see. Not pretty much of a big thing but Im sure some random people who’ll goin to view this will surely say, "awwwwww..how sweeet..!"  and yes it is!